This morning she had her final trip to the vets. We had planned on doing it next Monday but she was deteriorating too quickly - vomitting, wheezing, gasping and lethargic - and we couldn't bear the thought of her suffering. We were all there when she was sedated at 9.20 am and said goodbye to her before the vet took her into the back room to euthanase her at 9.31 am.
We drove home listening to the playlist we'd created for her as I cuddled her on my lap. At home, the boys all had a cuddle and we lay her out on the floor so that we could all (including her kitty companion) say our final goodbyes. Then we wrapped her up in a white baby blanket with the goodbye notes that the boys had made, and, as Bright Eyes, the final song on her playlist played in the background, The OH took her out into the wild wind, rain and hail to bury her.
To help us in our grief, we then drew pictures of her as we wished for her to be... loved, happy, warm in the sunlight and chasing butterflies... because she was more than just a cat, more than just a pet. She was part of our family. And we loved her.
I am so sorry for your loss. We went through the same thing with our cat and the vet asked us if we wanted to stay while he euthanised her. It was heartbreaking but was lovely that her eyes were on us as she went. I am sure it has been a big year for you emotionally. I have tried to comment many times on your blog but I mustn't be up with computer things enough to be able to, so I hope this one works. You have such a lovely little family and must be so proud of all your little men ( and big one). We are at Deloraine, but I am opposite and have daughters. If you are ever going through and want to call in for a cup of tea let me know, jamesnkel@hotmail.com.
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Kellie
Thank you so much for your kind words, Kellie. Do you homeschool too? We are hoping to do day trips to some of the little towns around the north of the state this summer so we may make it over Deloraine way. :)
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